Depression is setting in

Today has been a bad day for me. Work is getting me down and just trying to make people beleive that I have my situation under control is depressing me.

One week to go and I have my MRI scan. Hopefully this will put the tumour in my liver and this will mean they can operate to remove it before it gets into my lympatic system and spread to other parts of my body.

Hopefully once the scans have been done and a decision made I can start to relax a little although the way my luck has been going something else just as nasty will crop up.

If I had a belief in a religion I would say it is devine retribution for some wrong I did in my past but I have become somewhat cynical and believe that somewhere in my past I did something silly and now I am paying for that stupidity of youth.

Just getting these thoughts down on this blog is helping me no end.

I certainly do not believe in doing things in a half hearted manner. For 40 years the worse thing to happen to me was a kidney stone now I have Chirosis of the Liver caused by the Hepetitis C Virus complicated with what is possibly quite a large tumour which has sprung into view over the past month.

Oh well such is Life!!!